This is the first time in my 15 years of my driving life feeling so stupid paying after the incident. By law, she was wrong, no matter whether she did give signal light or not, and whether did I see her signal or not. However, at that moment I chose to give her the money she demanded to avoid further argument. I thought it was a smart move, but I regretted so much later that I did not stand for myself when someone take advantage of me.
In my 15 years of driving life, I hit pillars, road side blocks, metal gates, etc. many times, but never a car. My family told me I gave in because I was an 'inexperience-about-accident' driver. ‘Never pay if you know you are right.. bring it to the police.. record the car number, name, and driving license.. best take a picture of the incident before you move your car to the side.’ Wow, so much I did not do!
No matter what people tell me, the incident already happened and passed. I cannot even remember that car number now. ‘Why suddenly I became so blur? I should have…’ ‘Why bad things only happen to good people?’ Questions keep playing in my brain. Somehow I cannot take away the regret feeling in me for few days.
I tell myself I have to stop blaming myself although it is not easy. And I must learn something more than this. May be God want me to go through this to learn something different? Yeah, this is a more important mind set to have, to survive, and to live life! I decided then to go for a good book for an answer, or a comfort.. the book I read is The BE Happy Attitudes by Robert Schuller.
'Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.'
God does comfort good people when bad things happen to them.
Don’t ask: ‘Why do bad things happen to good people?’
Ask: ‘What happens to good people when bad things happen to them?’
And the answer?
They become better people.
